pencilhigh

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pencilhigh

Aug 26, 2019

Life update without the wall of text

1 min read

For those who're still following me even after decades of inactivity, thank you. For the new watchers there, thank you so much too. I will provide wonderful content in the near future...

Here I am a new graduate, supposed to be studying for the board exams and yet I'm focusing on my art instead.

.......

.....

I have a boyfriend, btw! We're 1 year and approx. 4 months! Hurray!!

Btw, been into old shoujo animu these days... Kare Kano and Honey&Clover...

Might actually draw them someday...

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pencilhigh

Aug 26, 2019

How's it going? (really long life update)

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So it's 1:00 in the morning here... And I've honestly been going through some things...

I'm not one to share too much about my personal life here on dA, so forgive me if I get a bit emotional here...

For those who're still following me even after decades of inactivity, thank you. For the new watchers there, thank you so much too. I will provide wonderful content in the near future...

_{Just let me vent out a bit...}

-----------------------(LONG STORY BEGINS HERE)-----------------------

I've always been the sensitive type. Just one wrong press of a button and I could snap and scream at your face...

Very violent, I know. Been trying to control it to a point... So I try not to let things get to me easily... But when they do, it's usually the littlest events... which eventually turn to huge, uncontrollable moments to a point of no return.

I had this huge argument with a group of my friends in a groupchat... I've seriously caused a lot of drama in the past and they stuck with me despite all that. But this time, when I tried defending myself they accused me of having that "victim mentality" wherein fact I was honestly hurt by how they treated me...

I asked my bf for some help. He suggested I leave them for good, but I was hesitant. But it was getting too toxic so I finally left the group chat, and I was really upset about it. I cried as I had thoughts of cutting all ties with them. I unfriended every single one of those involved on facebook.

I heard from a middle man who gave me details on their POV and at some point I thought they were right... I'm not saying I had no fault at all but I hoped they'd understand me after all these years... It was unsettling and painful...

.............

I still am "friends" with some of them on fb but I still can't get rid of the feeling. Sometimes I feel that pure hatred and animosity towards them... I'd ignore it until I calm down.

---------------------(STORY ENDS HERE)--------------------------------

Sorry about this "sob story"... It's easier sharing here than fb for some odd reason.

I needed help but I don't want my family to know about this. I'm too much of a burden already.

Here I am a new graduate, supposed to be studying for the board exams and yet I'm focusing on my art instead.

I don't have any dreams and even if I do find one, I just don't have the energy to push through anymore. Until they stay that way. Only as dreams...

My bf's there to help me stay on the brighter side of things, and I'm really trying but there isn't that much willpower left anymore. Tbh I'm only pushing thru 'cause he's there. And my family too.

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pencilhigh

Jun 25, 2019

RIKUXION FANZINE (2019) UPDATE!

2 min read

Check out more updates here on their

RIKUXI FANZINE TWITTER page!

You can check out their

RIKUXI FANZINE TUMBLR page

for complete information!

DEADLINE OF SKETCHES/PLOT IS ON JUNE 28!

DEADLINE FOR THE FINISHED FANART/FANFIC WOULD BE ON AUGUST 31!

To all the RIKUXION fans out there, please help me spread out this info!!

:bademoticon:

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pencilhigh

Jun 4, 2019

RIKUXION FANZINE (2019)

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Hello everyone!

Some time ago I was contacted by

on facebook to see if I can contribute to their RIKUXION FANZINE PROJECT.

Having been a long time fan of the ship, despite of my busy schedules and such, I DECIDED TO JOIN IN ON THE FUN! HURRAAAYYYY!!

Here's the link to the page, and the survey if you wanna contribute.

:bademoticon:

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pencilhigh

May 24, 2018

Overdue life update!

1 min read

Hello guys! It's been sooo damn long huh? I won't be surprised if my watchers suddenly left or something...

Internship has long started for me and I barely have the time to draw anymore... And here I thought I could manage my free time wisely so I can take up commissions...

I'm sorry you guys had to be informed late... Guess being a deviant hasn't been in my life plan... 😅

...I miss drawing though... 😭

Anyway, pencilhigh here signing out!

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Life update without the wall of text

Aug 26, 2019

For those who're still following me even after decades of inactivity, thank you. For the new watchers there, thank you so much too. I will provide wonderful content in the near future... Here I am a new graduate, supposed to be studying for the board exams and yet I'm focusing on my art instead. ....... ..... I have a boyfriend, btw! We're 1 year and approx. 4 months! Hurray!! Btw, been into old shoujo animu these days... Kare Kano and Honey&Clover... Might actually draw them someday...

How's it going? (really long life update) by pencilhigh, journal

How's it going? (really long life update)

Aug 26, 2019

So it's 1:00 in the morning here... And I've honestly been going through some things... I'm not one to share too much about my personal life here on dA, so forgive me if I get a bit emotional here... For those who're still following me even after decades of inactivity, thank you. For the new watchers there, thank you so much too. I will provide wonderful content in the near future... Just let me vent out a bit... -----------------------(LONG STORY BEGINS HERE)----------------------- I've always been the sensitive type. Just one wrong press of a button and I could snap and scream at your face... Very violent, I know. Been trying to contro

RIKUXION FANZINE (2019) UPDATE! by pencilhigh, journal

RIKUXION FANZINE (2019) by pencilhigh, journal

RIKUXION FANZINE (2019)

Jun 4, 2019

Hello everyone! Some time ago I was contacted by ~alannacrystal (https://www.deviantart.com/alannacrystal) on facebook to see if I can contribute to their RIKUXION FANZINE PROJECT. Having been a long time fan of the ship, despite of my busy schedules and such, I DECIDED TO JOIN IN ON THE FUN! HURRAAAYYYY!! Here's the link to the page, and the survey if you wanna contribute. :D

Overdue life update! by pencilhigh, journal

Overdue life update!

May 24, 2018

Hello guys! It's been sooo damn long huh? I won't be surprised if my watchers suddenly left or something... Internship has long started for me and I barely have the time to draw anymore... And here I thought I could manage my free time wisely so I can take up commissions... I'm sorry you guys had to be informed late... Guess being a deviant hasn't been in my life plan... 😅 ...I miss drawing though... 😭 Anyway, pencilhigh here signing out!